Sorry it's been so long since I blogged. Life has been CRRAY CRAY...
I started homeschooling my daughter three weeks ago. It was definitely what needed to be done. It was a HUGE HUGE HUGE decision. It was something that I had already been leading towards, b/c she was having so much anxiety about going. She cried every morning, every day after school, she was just not a happy kid anymore. her self confidence had dropped drastically. Her school work was less than acceptable. etc.
After she came home TWICE in "pee pee" pants I decided that I had, had enough! You see she has a bladder issue, she has to urinate 30-50 times a day ( no exaggeration there either)! Her teacher had the letter from the urologist stating to let her go and she would have to go a lot etc. Her teacher had a one on one conversation with me about it. Her teacher and I also emailed back and fourth daily. BUT they still didn't let her go sometimes and for two days in a row she pee'd her pants..... She was so embarrassed that she didn't tell anyone and just walked around in pee pee pants... NOT OKAY!!! there were three boys who already made fun of her on a daily basis, counting how many times she went, saying she's weird b/c she pees all the time etc etc etc....
She came home that Monday after school. Deflated. No self worth at all. She felt she was WEIRD. I could smell the pee pee as we walked home. I didn't say anything then, b/c we walked with friends everyday. Once we got home she broke down in tears. She told me she would gladly take a shot in her "pee pee" if it would make her "unweird". that BROKE my heart..... We talked about it, I boosted her back up and she went on to play.
I had the talk with my husband after dinner. Told him what happened. He was just as irate as I was. Our plan was to start homeschooling in January. We were unprepared as far as having all the curriculum I wanted to have. BUT I had already done months and months of research. THANKFULLY.... You know what, the thought of homeschooling made me anxious. Am I good enough? Will I have enough patience? etc... But you know what? It's not about me at this point. It's about whats best for her. As parents we sacrifice. So, we told her that night as she was having panic attack after panic attack about going back to school that she didn't have to go back. We would home school. You shoulda seen her face! she was instantly relieved. She finally for the first time in MONTHS slept ALL night! Yall that's huge!
So we made the plunge! No looking back! and it was the BEST decision we have ever made. Her confidence is back. She's happy. Her school work has improved a 100 x better! her attitude is great. Her and I argue WAY less. I'm LESS stressed because I don't worry about her all day! Her and I see each other ALL the time now. We read together. Play games together. Cook together. LEARN together. Ya'll sometimes you just have to follow your heart. I did.. and I'm thankful for it! And pray about it. I did, God had been telling me what to do for months. I just had to research it. But at that moment, my husband and I knew what we had to do, we all have to sacrifice for this. My husband works more. I have more on my plate, but it's totally worth it!
As far as blood sugars. They've been up and down as always. I'm having a rough few days ( prob due to thanksgiving and way tooo many carbs!) but overall I'm still winning this fight of diabetes. Hoping one day I'll have it perfected. Until then I just keep on keeping on.
